My sudden experience with St. John

This is kind of more of a quicker post, not really meant to be educational and loreso talking about an experience I had, so, I was doing a spell for two spell bottles, using a Bible verse, it was John 15:12—16, and this spell was to empower these jars with love, not really romantic love, just the idea of love itself, platonic, romantic, being in love with the world or life in general, that sorta thing, and..for some reason in the moment j called out to St. John, I just felt like I should, and ut was moreso a "aid me" as in empower me because I am reading your words out of your book I still felt in power over the spell..and I started crying while reading the verse? Teary eyed while I looked down at my altar, I felt so much love and care and comfort that it was overwhelming in a very joyful way, it was odd in the sense that..I've never really felt thus way with biblical saints, I've always felt kinda tense around the idea of saints, but this just felt.. natrual, and comforting

(A picture during the spell)